Bodhi's Blogs

In ethereal madness, in unspeakable sadness
I pick up the pieces of my shattered soul
In deafening silence, i collect my transcience
Alone in the universe i stand still whole

In my cosmic musings, i gather all the listings
Of what i was, and what i am, as i review my goals
As meaning eludes me, and death hounds me
I am again pursued by my existential ghouls

In the clutch of existence, i tried to grasp the essence
Of a life i cannot grasp beyond the eternal void,
As emptiness embraces me, within and outside of me,
I cannot wake within this body's restless droid.

Though beauty astounds me, and mystery surrounds me
i cannot help but ask the answerless question
Why life is so poignant, why death is malignant
Why am i here and what's my spirit's predilection.

I have only one life to live and one chance to give
Tomorrow may never come, before life is undone
I have only one breath to take, one heartbeat i could make
Before everything stops under the sun i will miss all the fun.

So i rejoice in this borrowed moment now, with any means i know how
Celebrate all the persons i will meet, remove all pride and deceit
Til eternity overtakes me, and the world i will no longer see
Yet in the endless nothingness, i will have lived in happiness

Because i have lived life to the fullest, became authentic in earnest
And i have known beauty with all its mystery
And i was filled with love, with all its majesty
Because we have encountered each other poignantly
Spirit's who travel in this incredible human journey.

The mighty wind blows on my soul as i tossed and tumbled
Not knowing where to go full of doubts as i stumbled
In different places unremembered, surpassing my memory
I search for strength and answers bereft and lonely.

I am like a tiny feather blown by the wind so fast
I know not where to go except to go with the flow
All i have is my tiny center, a little strength and trust,
Steel will and courage to go on with every blow.

Breath of the spirit guide me in my endeavors,
Eye of the spirit watch all my labors
Edge of the spirit cut all my wanton desires
Light of the spirit burn me in your sacred fires.

So that i will travel through this world and the next
Spreading all my love and my visions, in different directions
Tiny though am i in this vast universe i lie
The breath of the spirit will blow me to the sky.

There is a piece of the sun shining bright inside of me,
It creates unstoppable longings and fills me with creativity,
There is a freedom that shouts from within the depths of my desire,
A yearning so great it fills me with fire.

This piece of the sun powers my whole body,
It gives my heart a surge of emotion and energy,
It lights up my mind with images that want to find reality
It burns my spirit to search for my real identity.

Yet i know that this fire is not my body,
It's not even the emotions that consistently wrack me,
It's not in the thoughts that hound me endlessly,
It's an emptiness that so full it feels like beauty.