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Hello everyone,  I just posted a poem in that group for all of those who are a part of that.  It is called: "She Sings."

It is to offer hope,  not sorrow.  And my wish for all of you who have been a "victim of abuse or know someone who has," can find peace of mind,  & also set your spirit free,  so that you too - can also Sing (smile).  Enjoy your day & many blessings to all of you.  Your friend always,  Cathy

                                   Vibrant Rose

HAPPY NEW YEAR LOVELY'S ...:wink:

My youngest daughter posted this for herself which I thought was really cool. And would be something for us all to do. And so, here it is (smile). The only thing was I added one too it, & its the last on the list.

Tell us about your past year

Well, I also broke someone's heart as well as had mine broken.
I also got to get closer to both of my beautiful daughters & my Sister.
I got back with an old dear friend of mine that I hadn't seen in a long time.
I also made a lot of dear friends that I have never had before in my life. "Pretty cool."
I went to Tennessee, South Carolina, Georgia, Wyoming & Montana.
I have a chance to get one of my story's published.
I met Larry Bird.
I got to get my baby girl dog, Madison - named after my Granddaughters middle name
I have kids that I claim as my own & I dearly love.
I got to design a couch which was something.
I lost my dream car.
I lost another home that I also helped create.
Been sick a lot this year, but luckily nothing major - yeah~~
And I gravely made the mistake of getting married.

What were you doing this time last year?
I got propsed to, first time ever on that one.

What has been your best New Years?
Spending the New Years with my Youngest Daughter in the Hospital. We had grape juice to toast with & played skipbo, & watched the New Year come in. Her appendix ruptured during Christmas a few years ago & she was in the hospital for 2 weeks. That New Year's Eve, it was just her & I
;-).

Firsts of the New Year.
1. Drink--- Ice Tea
2. Food --- a piece of candy
3. Kiss --- I didn't want to be kissed.
4. Phone Call --- My youngest daughter called me & then I called my oldest daughter.

What are you going to be doing after this?
Not much. Except I'll be cleaning & packing some more of my things to get ready to move ;-).

*New Year's Resolution for 2007*
I don't make those, too hard to keep. But maybe I'll quit smoking someday this year. And maybe not.

What are your plans for the coming Year as well as hopes & dreams ;-).
Mine is to get my life straightened out. My hope is to get my own place here soon, & start a New Life - Yeah~~. As well as to get one of my story's published sometime this year. And get a car, along with taking my two daughters to Wyoming with me to visit my Sister. Taking our time driving & just having some fun. I'll have to also go through a divorce, but that's okay. I know I am going to be just fine. And I want to get my last name back. I want to enjoy more of the simple things in Life, & continue to get to know my friends as well as make new ones. I am going to take this year for "myself." I'm going to "dance like no-one's watching, sing, write, write, write, & have some fun ;-)." And someday, I hope to find the love that I feel I deserve as well as want to give ;-).

Peace to all of you. With Love - your friend always. Looking forward to you all doing this too, (smile). Hope you all have a wonderful day.

Dedicated to my Bright Eyes, all his Friends & His Loving Family

In Honor and Memory
Nathan P. Sides
August 15, 1982 - December 6, 2006

Nothing like the pain of loosing someone, even if you don't know them that well. I cannot imagine the pain that a parent goes through with loosing a child. To me it would be the worst ever. I did not know this person, however - my "bright eyes as well as some of her friends that I personally know did."

So young, this man was. So full of life and Always eager to help others. He was so bright, so smart, had a lot going for him. Yet even so, he was also so full of pain. Such sadness. Did he really want to die, may I ask? NO, he didn't. He just wanted the pain to go away. And who are we to judge anyone? We're not. "Only our best friend, "God," has a right to judge. For he is the one that truly know's who we are, "even when we are Lost."

When someone takes their own life, Its no-one's fault! Its just that they are in too much pain. Sometimes, there are those in life, that intelligence is way above normal, & they feel as if they have no-one that they can really relate too. And this young man "I believe," was one of them. And there are those as well, who just has too much pain.

Now, should anyone of us judge him? Do we have a right to judge him? No. He is still an angel from God. Try telling the poor mother, or his little sister, or his friends that he is not.
How dare anyone to say things like "what a waist," "how stupid," or anything negative period! For those was not in that young man's shoes. Sure - we can relate some, but we weren't in his shoes.

Its really hard to loose anyone, but the saddest is when they take their own life. Always questions that people wonder - always sadness & pain. Especially for the Mother. For mothers are mostly the caregivers. And the first thing they usually do is try to fix what is hurting their child. And this was pain that she couldn't fix. Now, is she to blame? NO. Nor is the rest of his family or his closest friend, or any of his other friends. {Not even himself - is to really blame. For he just didnt know what else to do.}

Life is so precious period. And we all take for granted. Its painful no matter how old the person is. However, there is Hope. Just like this song by Diamond Rio called "I Believe."
And this song is dedicated to his precious mother, sister, family, BJ, all his friends, And
"My Bright Eyes." {Remember - "God," is our best friend.} sometimes we get lost along the way, but he is Always there - reaching out with his caring Hands. Trying not to let you fall. He has the biggest Tears of all! He is not out to hurt anyone! Even he had no control over Nate or anyone else who passed away. The only thing he can do is comfort us - until the day when we ourselves are in his Loving Arms. He is our biggest Angel! And so for all of You, hold on to his memory, as well as for some comfort - trust in these words, and "Our
Best Friend."


I BELIEVE

Every now and then, soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you come back again,
And it's like you haven't been - gone a moment from my side,
Like the tears were never cried
Like the hands of time are holding you and me,
And with all my heart I'm sure, we're closer than we ever were,
I don't have to hear or see, I've got all the proof I need,
There are more than angels watching over me -
I believe, Oh I believe

Chorus
Now when you die your life goes on
It doesn't end here when you're gone


Every souls filled with light
It never ends if I'm right
Our love can even reach across eternity
I believe, Oh I believe

Forever, you're a part of me
Forever, in the heart of me
I will hold you even longer if I can -
Oh, the people who don't see the most,
See that I believe in ghosts
If that makes me crazy, then I am -
'Cause I believe, Oh I believe

There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, Oh I believe

Every now and then,soft as breath upon my skin -
I feel you come back again -
And I believe

It breaks my heart to see my "bright eyes," in so much pain as well as the rest of this man's friends & family. But I want you all to know that if You too believe, you will have the highest comfort. It won't take the pain completely away, but it will give you the most comfort. Nate would not want you all to suffer. He just wanted his own pain to go away. Rest assure that he is with our "Best Friend." He is watching over all of you! And when our time comes, he as well as others that passed before us, along with our Best Friend, will be waiting with their precious arms out - reaching for us All. We will then - be at Home, we will then be at
peace, & we will then - finally be truly Free!

In the meantime, cherish those precious memory's that you all have. Smile, be playful,
dance, sing, do things that are goofy, silly & fun. Always be "true to yourself & others." For what we all have now, is just a stepping stone - just a glimsp of better things to come. And know too that Nate would want you to go on, "remember him from time to time, with tears, but mostly - with joy," And he is also one of those precious Angels watching over all of you!

Just like our Best Friend. He will forever live within all of you! Just like the rest of us will also live within those that loves us. We are just little spirits that no matter what, shall live forever, with the biggest Spirit. {If you believe.} "May you all have peace!" I love all of you dearly! For you all Are "my precious Gift!" Now, go wipe those tears away, smile & go play. Nate, as well as our Best Friend "God," would want you too.