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any one try on line dateing  I field out a personal  site an had 4hits already only wrote one back but not sure  what to do next Ive been out of the dateing sean for a while trying to get my head on straighand this holiday got me feeling like some thing is missing HAPPY VALINTINES DAY to everyone!!! I wounder if that why thous guys hit on my profile I have troble beliving I have anything to offer,.and when they find I in therphy theywill run the other wayI need to think positve Im frienly careing I can watch sports and enjoy them I cook very well 20 years of food service  I know a kitchen insideout #3 years as a care aide I know how to care for a person    and deal with different people care aide was the last job I had selfenployed so iknow how to work I jest need to step out of my confort zone and take a chance but carefully     I raised a normal upstanding young man .If anyone reads this I'm giveing my self a pep talk any pointers on dealing with lonlyness would help !!God meets all need but sometimes they need to be in human form!! the normal things anyone wants a cuddle on the couch watching a movie normal stuffanyone got advice on how to do the on line dating thing ? has it worked for anyone

today is worth living I feel alive and renewed some times you need to face old memories to move foward they bring tears of healing .I also dealt with anger toward other people from the past writing down the feeling helped I jounel to get this out then come here to share what feels safe when you are reliving old abuse it is very draining as you move on in life some of those thing still haunt you God gives me the strength to keep trying to do new and change for the better to hopefully forgive and find love for family that has hurt me  therphy brought out these feeling and next week I will go back I want to get better and be able to handal going back to school and back into the workforce a year of to recover after 20years of working with lots of overtime to nothing but church and my art work to fill the time at first was hard  now I keep most days filled that I wounder if I can make it again in the workforcethanks to thius site I have met new people and got over fear of the PC I fill like I missed some thing if I not on for a few days I go to other site and join in on their chats and blogs   but it all stared here comeing out of my shell to discover the PC and the friends it can offer thanks to everyone God bless and angels keep you all safe.

to day has been very emoional other people saw me cry when I tryed to talk about being there at the end of a family members life so you don't feel guilty about not spending the time you could have jest sitting and talking about the past or watching tv with them helping them get the drink of water because there hands shook to much no regrets tear cooming mustgo

winter finaly came to Pa.I've driven in two storms and get emails from mom saying about 80 weather in flordia.the plow broke so now we have to shovel what fun!!lol some days I'm a nervce wreck till I get were i'm going.I rolled a car on icy roads so this time of year is my least fav. though the groundhog did see his shadow so I'm hopeing for that early spring.Ilive 20 min.from were he prodicts so he better be right for our area.